Well, it’s that time again.  Time for the bi-annual Arkansas Anime Festival.  I’ve been doing magic shows there for the couple of years and I love it.  The audiences there are freaking amazing.  The most non-judgy, welcoming, and open minded crowd of young adults ever.  In the past, I’ve just done my show, with a few special pieces thrown in, but now, I realize that that was a mistake.  Don’t get me wrong, it went over well, I’m just saying I’ve really missed some opportunities.

What opportunities you ask?

Well, while discussing last fall’s shows with my wife, I was struck with epiphany.  This is not like other venues.  These are not like other audiences.  They’re so much more open to different and non-normal things.  This show, I reasoned, was the perfect place (maybe the only place) to do some of the tricks that I love the most but can’t do in a normal show because they are… well… a little weird.

Isn’t all magic weird, Mr. Putsapenupyournose?

First off, there’s no need for name-calling, and second off, yes, it is.  But, these tricks I’m talking about are especially weird.  I’m going to be reading minds, conjuring spirits, bringing together chance and destiny, telling stories about the Norse gods, and recounting the story of the birth and death and rebirth of the universe. If regular magic tricks are a picture book, these tricks are poetry.

Not your normal kid’s birthday party.

I’m a little nervous because I’ve never done some of this stuff for a live audience before and I’m not sure how some of it will play with the crowd.  But, I chose pieces that I love deeply, pieces that I’ve always wanted to do.  I hope that passion shows and will help the audience care a little about them too.

So if you’re there, come see it.  It’s a chance to see tricks that you’ll NEVER see on a TV magic show, and probably never see in a real life one either.

And if you’re not there, hopefully there will be some video of the whole thing I an post here next week.

Wish me luck!

Still Becoming a Magician

September 28, 2011

I don’t usually like to toot my own horn, so:

Warning:  The following blog entry contains several examples of mild to moderate self horn tooting.  Those with weak constitutions beware.

Exactly one year ago yesterday, I began this blog.

But that’s not all I began.  I began my journey to become a magician and to finally live my dream.  In one short year, I’ve gone from having done nothing to having done a renaissance fair, 2 anime conventions, a few birthday parties, some festivals, and I’ve even gotten a recurring gig at a local restaurant.  No one could possibly be more impressed with this than me.

And it is at this point, one year in, that I am struck with how accidentally brilliant the title of this blog is.  Let me explain.  At the start, I figured I would document my path toward becoming a professional, working, magician; I was becoming a magician, and at some point in the future, I reasoned,  I would BE a magician.  End of blog.  However, even now that I feel pretty comfortable calling myself a magician, I am constantly seeing ways to become better and grow as an artist and entertainer.  So I’m at a strange point in my journey now.  I can look back and see I’ve come a long way and I can look forward and see I still have a long way to go.  Thankfully, I don’t have to go alone.  The support from my wife, family, and friends has been remarkable and not only could I not have come this far without it, but, the way ahead wouldn’t look so bright without it either.  So thanks to all of you.

Now I begin the next steps.

Speaking of which, I took one last night.  I’ll set the scene:  a busy restaurant full of families, kids everywhere, and me, strolling from table to table entertaining one group after another.  I’ve worked there for a few months now, and have been really excited about putting all the theory about that type of performing to practice.  Since I’m only at each table for about 5 minutes, I only need 5 or 6 different tricks for any given night that I just do over and over again for each new audience.  There is no better way to get good at a magic trick than being able to perform it 20-30 times in a row for different, real audiences.  It’s been tremendous for both my skill and confidence.  So here’s what happened:  I’m at a table doing my stuff when all of a sudden there is sort of a shift in my brain.  I noticed that I wasn’t thinking about doing the trick.  It was more like I was in my head watching myself do the trick.  I could even hear myself talking.  That’s when I realized that I was on auto-pilot.  I had done the routine and performed the script so many times that I didn’t even have to think about it anymore and my body would just take over.  I knew it so well it was like a reflex.  I’ve heard of other performers doing this.  I thought all of this to myself while the trick was still going on without missing a beat.

I knew that I was at a crossroad (not the blues kind… well, could be, I guess).  I could use the power for laziness and just space out and wait to regain awareness in the car after the show, or, I could use the power for the growth of my abilities.  Luckily, I chose the second one.  My big (and when I say big, I mean BIG) goal as a performer is to express myself through my craft.  When I get done with a show I want people to feel like they got to know me; I want to be genuine and real on stage not some generic rabbit-puller.  So, seeing the opportunity, I reengaged myself with the performance.  I saw that when I knew I didn’t have to worry about the mechanics of the trick (my hands know what they’re doing), I was able to actually be present and communicate more openly and respond to the audience more genuinely. In short, I was able to let more of myself come through.  In shorter, I got real.

This is a huge step forward for me.  In the past, my anxiety about performing lead me to use the script as a crutch.  If I didn’t have everything I was going to say planned out beforehand, I would just get too nervous to do it.  And if something unexpected happened, or something got me off track… forget about it.  Don’t get me wrong, I still get nervous, probably always will, and I’ll probably always need a script of some kind but, I think I’m  slowly gaining the ability through experience to go off script, interact with the audience, then return to the script when I need to.  I’ve always been in awe of performers who can do that well, and frustrated that there’s no method in a book that tells you how.  Turns out, you can’t learn everything from books.  Some things you can’t learn until you learn them and you don’t know how it happened.

So now it seems that the “magician” in “Becoming a Magician” is not just the name of a job.  The magician is an image of myself as the performer, artist, entertainer, and person that I want to be and that I am working everyday to become.  So stick with me.  My journey is far from over.

New Show!

November 18, 2010

Well, it’s happened.  I got another show.  I really didn’t think it would happen this fast.  This Saturday, I’ll be performing at the Arkansas Anime Festival.  I’m super excited.  I met the people putting it on while I was wandering around at the Ren. Faire a few weeks back and I talked to them about maybe doing some walk-around close-up stuff.  They were interested and told me to stop by their shop here in Fayetteville to talk more about it.  So my wife and I went down to hash out the details.  Everything was going well until one of them came out from the back and said, “we just had someone cancel.  can you do 30 minutes on stage?”  I didn’t know what to say.  Luckily, my wife did.  Before I could express my apprehension about a 30 minute stage show, she said, “yeah, you can do that.”  That’s why I married her, she always knows the right thing to say when I might get scared and mess it up.  So, the last week or so, I’ve been hard at it reworking some pieces from the ren. faire show and adding some new ones, which is why I haven’t blogged about it before now.

The Ball, Fruit, and Flute tick will be making a reappearance, as well as the rope routine, paper routine, and linking rings.  In addition, there will be two or three new additions: a card multiple selection routine where 8 – 10 people from the front row all choose cards and I find them all in various entertaining ways, a very cool 3 card monte routine with cards I made that are 18″ tall, and, if technical things are in place, I’ll do the “Crazy Man’s Handcuffs,” probably my favorite trick of all time, on stage with my hands projected on a big screen behind me.  It’ll be way cool.

This show is breaking a lot of new ground for me.  It’ll be the first time I’ve ever been on stage that long and it will be the biggest audience I’ve ever worked in front of and has the potential to be even bigger than I think.  There are 200 seats in front of the stage and at the whole festival there will be over 1000 people.  It’s exciting and terrifying at the same time.  It should be quite an experience.

The strange thing is that I find myself much less nervous about this show than the last.  I don’t know if it’s because I don’t have as much time to worry about it or what, but it’s good.  I’ve also been assured that a crowd of anime fans is one of the best crowds ever and very understanding if things mess up, not that I think I will, but it’s good to know.  I really hope I can keep this momentum going and just keep performing because the more I do it, the more I want to do it.